God loves me

i was feeling down and confused about some stuff, especially with regards to 2Cor 6 "do not be yoked with unbelievers"

and though i know it, it wasnt speaking to me, and at some point this morning i felt really dry and though my heart was telling me to follow the Bible, follow God's way, telling me that He loves me and nothing else matters, my mind was saying just heck it, just go ahead and not listen to God.

so i went down matbay and took a walk. and i walked and talked. first i tried sorting things out by myself, which didnt work. and at one point of time, i felt so terrible and miserable i cried out to God - my heart's telling me You're there, my mind's telling me otherwise. if You're there give me a sign, speak to me, touch me, tell me something.. then i really longed to see a dolphin, because well i love them ALOT and i havent seen one yet... 

and 30seconds later, this fin appeared RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME. and i knew, i knew it was God's creation, God sent him. then another one appeared. and they were fully playing and frolicking in front of me less than 5m away. 

AND i almost cried. i shouted out THANK YOU GOD :) and the people must've thought i was mad. 

and after about 5 minutes, they fully disappeared. 

i know what God wants me to do

i know God LOVES ME 

i'm basking in His love :)

there's no better feeling

no more awesome love to be in 

Praise God :)

sian or spiritual attack?

im tired.

i dont know why

perhaps it was the lecture which took forever just now. clinical practice lecture.

or maybe its cos... of a spiritual attack

whatever it is, i dont know what.

anyway

i just dont have the energy to do any work. somehow.

and i might be going to the beach later.

on another note, rach lum might be coming back. and she wants to stay with us, us being amelea, cynthia and i

thats if cynthia stays.

it's gonna be exciting i think.

but i dont know what to expect.

no house (yet), no confirmations etc.

amelea's birthday on friday

prayer meeting tomorrow night, FNL friday night.

i reckon i'll go for friday's only

shouldnt go if i cant give 100% right?

says hooi.

anyway. should stop this rot.

sigh.

NS, fasting, amongst others

had normal systems test today. not sure how i'll do, but hopefully i'll pass. anatomy was easy, but some physiology was really hard. anyway, its all in God's hands. amazingly enough, im not nervous/anxious (maybe i should be) i was effectively praying and talking to God throughout the whole paper. mostly during rest stations and for the stations that were super easy and stuff. which was good i guess. 

im fasting now. for 7 days (thinking of increasing to 10). on nothing but fruit and veg only and only for dinner. part of FCC's prayer month. its not about me, its not about losing weight and stuff, but about God, growing closer to Him, walking with Him, being HUNGRY FOR HIM and refocussing on Him as well. and i think on a more personal basis, i know that i've been mistreating my body (making it sleep super little as well) so at least for this time i'm looking to sleep and rest more and honour the body God has given me. 

BPD and prayer month has been quite insightful so far. going through the basics, speaking with God, its all been awesome. im still struggling with something, but hopefully i'll slowly let go. i DO want to let go, its just now all about trusting that God will guide me and i can step into His armour and all

mum and dad just went back. and they left a whole lot of food. but im fasting (and they dont know) so i gave it all away/giving it all away. i feel quite bad to, but i decided on this fast before i got the food, so changing my fasting dates would be like saying to God: my food is more important than You, so im not gonna do it 

somehow these days im filled with this longing for more of God at times, and at times i feel like i can do it my own way. spiritual attack, perhaps. but no. i know there is no other way but God's way. His way and not mine. so gotta keep praying and sticking and having FAITH :) 

rach's here, off to town to buy stuff with ophee :) buddy time at last.

disc! disc! disc!

i playyyed today =) i'm so happy.

3 glorious hours. in campus(pickup) then again in my hall =)

details of my minor milestones are on my blog. haha. shall not put them here cos its really minor achievements which seem good to lousy me.

ohwell. hope everyone's fine. i need to get mugging. now. ciao =)

oh. but my disc spent half an hour on the roof. cos it went up. and couldnt come down.

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what a monday

started out at 8, dissected a fetal pig til 11.

had human movement after that, and did bones of the skull.

had lunch

had podiatric med lesson, knew nothing cos everyone did anatomy (human bio) in high school and we dont learn it in singapore.

had patient psych til 7

burnt my dinner

played no frisbee.

have another long day tomorrow, and a blood test.

i wanna play frisbee

i wanna play frisbee

i wanna play frisbee

good luck to the banana for her gp test (tho i think its over by now)

rest well veggieball

congrats bakkwa (reminds me of my pig)

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pig

http://www.whitman.edu/biology/vpd/main.html

i dont believe im gonna do this on monday. help me think of a name for my pig.

i think i wont eat pork for the next 10 weeks.

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hey i'm not MIA

i'm just busy mugging my brains out. its end of week 1, i have 4 assignments due, staring at an 8am-7pm monday timetable, with 3 concurrent chapters of SALADIN(anatomy and physiology) to read. and my FAHB module doesnt give notes, so we've all to make it ourselves. gah.

that said, i cant play frisbee this week monday cos i've class til (gasp) 7pm. =( =( =( you guys are so lucky!

by the way, i went shopping last night for food, files and clothes. had jap for dinner (yum) between the 3 of us we bought like 9-10 files. and when i got back it was pitch dark and cos we stay in sep halls we like called each other as we walked back so we could alert the police if one of us got mugged.

i wanna play frisbee
i wanna play frisbee
i wanna play frisbee.

can someone PLEASE invent a frisbee-inducing drug so i can pop it into the juice machine in the dining room so everyone will wanna play frisbee instead of football? thanks =)

i heard the A level results were out yesterday. Congrats amanda!! how did like AC do in general? hope it was good =)

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