NS, fasting, amongst others

had normal systems test today. not sure how i'll do, but hopefully i'll pass. anatomy was easy, but some physiology was really hard. anyway, its all in God's hands. amazingly enough, im not nervous/anxious (maybe i should be) i was effectively praying and talking to God throughout the whole paper. mostly during rest stations and for the stations that were super easy and stuff. which was good i guess. 

im fasting now. for 7 days (thinking of increasing to 10). on nothing but fruit and veg only and only for dinner. part of FCC's prayer month. its not about me, its not about losing weight and stuff, but about God, growing closer to Him, walking with Him, being HUNGRY FOR HIM and refocussing on Him as well. and i think on a more personal basis, i know that i've been mistreating my body (making it sleep super little as well) so at least for this time i'm looking to sleep and rest more and honour the body God has given me. 

BPD and prayer month has been quite insightful so far. going through the basics, speaking with God, its all been awesome. im still struggling with something, but hopefully i'll slowly let go. i DO want to let go, its just now all about trusting that God will guide me and i can step into His armour and all

mum and dad just went back. and they left a whole lot of food. but im fasting (and they dont know) so i gave it all away/giving it all away. i feel quite bad to, but i decided on this fast before i got the food, so changing my fasting dates would be like saying to God: my food is more important than You, so im not gonna do it 

somehow these days im filled with this longing for more of God at times, and at times i feel like i can do it my own way. spiritual attack, perhaps. but no. i know there is no other way but God's way. His way and not mine. so gotta keep praying and sticking and having FAITH :) 

rach's here, off to town to buy stuff with ophee :) buddy time at last.